Life.

I saw a medium on Sunday, which was really incredible. It made me feel like you were really with me. She knew that my biggest fear in life is to have a boy with red hair (haha). She knew that I cry at night, wear your clothing, ask daily for signs. I'm so happy you came to talk to me, boo. I've missed you so much! My dad also came through, and I'm glad to know that the two of you have finally met. I had two nightmares last night, though. The first one was that you were randomly alive again. We went out somewhere with my brother, and as we started to walk down a set of stairs, your eyes rolled back and you started falling backwards. I started screaming for someone to call 911, and woke up screaming. I eventually fell asleep again, just to wake up from another nightmare. In this one, we were at a bar with a few friends. I saw the look in your eyes that resembled the way you looked the day before you passed. I started sobbing and told everyone I needed to take you to the hospital and to keep you awake. I knew that if you fell asleep, you'd be gone. It still absolutely boggles my mind that you're gone. Your life was too short, and so was the life we had together. I love you so much.