Greys Anatomy

"The truth is, it's sort of a myth. We can't boil every injury down to one single blow. 

What hurts us is cumulative, it happens over time. 

We absorb blow after blow, shock after shock, painful hit after hit. 

But even then, even if we know exactly how we got here, it doesn't mean we can fix it. 

You can't heal every wound, and that's okay, I have to believe it's okay. 

I have to believe that even if something seems it cannot be fixed, it doesn't mean it's broken."

Sea.

In a sea full of people, 

my eyes will always search for you. 

Life.

I saw a medium on Sunday, which was really incredible. It made me feel like you were really with me. She knew that my biggest fear in life is to have a boy with red hair (haha). She knew that I cry at night, wear your clothing, ask daily for signs. I'm so happy you came to talk to me, boo. I've missed you so much! My dad also came through, and I'm glad to know that the two of you have finally met. I had two nightmares last night, though. The first one was that you were randomly alive again. We went out somewhere with my brother, and as we started to walk down a set of stairs, your eyes rolled back and you started falling backwards. I started screaming for someone to call 911, and woke up screaming. I eventually fell asleep again, just to wake up from another nightmare. In this one, we were at a bar with a few friends. I saw the look in your eyes that resembled the way you looked the day before you passed. I started sobbing and told everyone I needed to take you to the hospital and to keep you awake. I knew that if you fell asleep, you'd be gone. It still absolutely boggles my mind that you're gone. Your life was too short, and so was the life we had together. I love you so much.

The answer is always yes....

Sometimes, I like to look at you from across the room

And I think, "if I didn't know this girl, would I still fall in love?"

What's the answer?

"Yes...yes."

Letting go.

"It's okay," he tells me. "If you want to go. Everyone wants you to stay. I want you to stay more than I've ever wanted anything in my life. But that's what I want and I could see why it might not be what you want. So I just wanted to tell you that I understand if you go. It's okay if you have to leave us. It's okay if you want to stop fighting." -If I Stay

Leavin'

"Now I'm leaving

Any moment I'll be gone

I think you'll notice

I think you'll wonder what went wrong

I'm not choosing

But I'm running out of fight

And this was decided so long ago

It was last night"

-If I stay